...I have cheated on my wife

Sunday afternoon. 2 Hour drive. hotel. Very nervous. Bar. Meet Teresa. Room. Not much sleep. Ice cream at 1am. Shared shower. Bed. More not much sleep.

Monday morning. Shower. Tea. Breakfast. Room. Bed. Shower.  Slightly awkward. Home. Meet wife. Help put tree up. Feel a bit achy.

Sleep very soundly with a large smile on my face.

tick tock

 mmm slight delay in meeting Teresa. Nothing other than busy schedules (i hope) anyway we have arranged to meet this Sunday now!! (seems a bit close to Christmas - extra naughty points?) Anyway, very excited! Must say that whilst shopping with wifey earlier this morning my mind was one thousand miles away (well 350 to be exact). Seems that all I could think about was Teresa and meeting her and the hotel and how she would look in very sexy lingerie she has been promising.
Ahhh yes.. sexy lingerie.. yes those were the days I remember fondly. Yes I remember my wife and when she was actually interested in sex.. .now the mere mention or suggestion of her wearing a pair of stockings is met with “the look”. What the look is exactly is open to debate though my take on “the look” is something like the following:

You want me to wear that??! I am not a slut?! I don’t have to dress up for you anymore??! We don’t have to have sex any more, we are married!?!?

Anyway I digress, as I was saying.. only a few days (hopefully this time) to go and everything is now very much in place. My official reason for a night away is my good friend Peter. Yes Pete, not seen him for a while (he lives in Norwich) about time I popped up to see him for a night! Although hesitated at first took the decision to speak to Pete about my weekend of sinful lust and how and exactly how and why I had woven him into my web of lies. (he’s fine with it)

One note to any readers, lying is not something that is very natural to me in fact if anyone has any tips would be great to hear from you!

OOOOoo First date!

OOOOoo First date!

Very exciting! Looks like yours truly has first date lined up! In fact this will be first meet with a woman other than my wife for about 7 years!!! Yes. You could say that I am rather excited about it.

Her name is Teresa. We have been chatting now for the past few weeks or so.. a lot. Almost every night... then texting.. then swapping pictures (yes this was a rather tense moment indeed, the first submission of a photo does indeed require a leap of faith) Anyway we seemed to have kinda “hit it off” in the cyber sense, although generally speaking messages did start to get rather filthy after ... I don’t know... the first initial hour of messaging... Absolute filth.

Problem? She lives 350 miles away!

No matter. Hotel is booked for 1 week from now! 

Jamie S

21:39 Wife asleep

Ok, so exactly how is a 34 married man expected to spend his evenings these days? Play games on a Playstation/Xbox? Watch Top Gear repeats on Dave? I know for sure what how I would sooner be spending my time.

Of course I guess I could give my mates a call, maybe go the pub, have a few beers. Trouble is, hanging out with desperately single guys & other, less fortunate attched friends (!) in their mid 30's (still thinking they are in their 20's) just don’t do it for me anymore. Listening to everyone moan about their desperate lives and whining about how little sex they get from their girlfriends or wives starting to get a bit tiresome. 

General discussion: (If they are married or with girlfriend) seems to revolve about lack of time/ everyone to tired/wife moody/not had sex for months etc.. if I am with am with single friends discussion seems to be: not enough time to get a girl/working too hard-too tired/not had sex for months!! Crazy. And not to mention poor Tom who has slept in the spare room for past 2 years. You read that right - 2 years!! Yes I must not mention Tom.

Must say, seems very strange to me. Myself, married and fast approaching 35, with friends around me in similar situations, we seem to have all developed something in common. Not sure if I am over stating this for effect for the blog (don’t think I am) but seems that there is a certain lack of... passion. Yes. The passion has GONE!! Passion for what i hear you ask? Hopefully not passion for life?!?  NOOOoooo

Horny wives everywhere!

Ok well maybe not everywhere but certainly in abundance, at least on the internet.  My wife has been busy bee last few days working at her office leaving me all alone at home to be a good husband. Maybe put up a shelf or paint a wall or something....

Well honestly, what else am I to do but take a look for hot sexy wives online? In fact I am looking for persons with the exact same agenda to myself online. That is to say, I consider myself:  a fit, horny, sex deprived (yet happily married) man. And thus my ideal match would be a fit, horny, sex deprived woman. Simple.

Anyway as I have said it appears that there is no shortage!! So having a little look around, a mail here, another one there... seems that I now have a couple of contacts... and they appear to be Human as well! Very normal in fact... of course a bit hornier than say the run of the mill women that I meet daily say in the office... but hey I’m not complaining!

Seems that indeed I have discovered (or possibly fallen into) a secret world of deceit and deception. Lies and secrets.  Betrayal and.. ok you get the message.

Soooo what now? The answer: I have no idea.

Jamie S

Hello to all that wish to read...

Ok so this is my blog... my story, my means of release(or so I hope) ..a way to unburden myself and my mind from married life in the 21st century.

In the middle of my 30's, have been married for 6 years (or is that 7 never quite sure) and life is good. Well, that is to say that I have a lovely wife and a lovely house. I work in finance for a secure company in a secure job in London. I have a nice car, a superb dishwasher, have good friends& family.

However something is missing. What could possibly be missing? I do not know.

Of course having "something missing" in your life I do not consider generally healthy. Could it be that married life is the cause of such a void? Something I find very intriguing is the possibility that my marriage, (you know the thing people do to feel happy, feel wanted and secure) is in fact the cause of my current dismay.

When I met my wife I was in my mid to late 20's. Was at my peak of confidence, living with a now ex-friend (that’s another story to be shared ..maybe).. times were good. Very little in the way of responsibility, and more than enough money enabled me to live life as I wished..

Then we met. Things were great to begin with. Not spectacular but ..great. She was dependable calm, clear headed, sensible. After a few weeks I remember calling time on what I thought to be a short relationship.

As if it was yesterday can remember the conversation which mostly comprised of her crying and me telling her "it's me, not you". (very cliché I know) Then something happened during this conversation. She started to question my goal in life. She started to question me and where I was heading.

Like a fool I listened. The following year we were married. Husband and Wife.

Now here I sit alone. Trying to make some sense or where I am now and what I am doing.

One thing I do know; I need to get my life back. I need excitement. I need to reclaim my life. I do love my wife. But I no longer think that is enough.

Jamie S